Lily Allen is opening up about her highly publicized split.
The 40-year-old It’s Not Me, It’s You superstar got candid in a new conversation for Perfect Magazine, out now.
During the conversation, Lily spoke candidly about her split from David Harbour, dating in her 40s, and why she decided to get a boob job.
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On her split from David Harbour:
“I don’t know what I can say. Two people who were once together are not together. And that’s really sad. It’s hard. It’s hard for me to not have my person, you know? And I am quite a codependent person. And I find it difficult to lean on the people who are available to me when I’m missing the comfort and stability of what is not available to me…and I know that what I have to do is to be able to make myself happy and that is a source of extreme irritation for me…and it means doing the f–king work, and I feel like I’ve been doing the work for f–king ages. I’m exhausted by it. And I thought it was done. I thought it was happily ever after, you know?”
On dating now:
“The dating scene is much harder as a 40-year-old woman with two teenage children than it is for a 34-year-old woman. It’s bitterly disappointing. There’s an element of humiliation and shame around it. The world doesn’t portray women of my age as being desirable. And it just feels like climbing up a mountain. But also, at the same time, I’m like, I don’t have to get involved with it. But something in me says that I do…being in a relationship is not the answer to all of my problems. In fact, it’s probably the opposite. But it feels like the easier option. But also quite hard to achieve in this current climate.”
On if she’s into the idea of an open marriage:
“No. I guess it’s just my attachment style. I grew up in a really unstable household. Neither of my parents was particularly present. And so what I craved in adulthood from my relationships was to be centred. And I’m not particularly interested in anything else. Right?”
On how her breast augmentation went, and why she got it:
“Good, although I have got fucking massive lump in my right boob. I think it must be a cyst, yeah. It’s not dangerous. I went to have a mammogram and an ultrasound in New York last week and it came back OK. I don’t know. I’m not a doctor…I felt like it. No, actually, you know what it was? It was that I got really, really thin when I was feeling at my lowest, in the past year or so. Or longer, actually. And I knew that I had to gain weight. And I’ve always been bottom-heavy and so I had a fear that if I was to gain weight, my body would feel out of proportion. And so I felt like, why not gift myself a get-out clause? Make it feel more enticing.”
On people picking through her upcoming album’s lyrics, and how she’ll be perceived:
“Hey, if what you’re doing isn’t provocative, what’s the f–king point? And if it’s not scary, what’s the point? I’m not here to be mediocre. My gift is my pen and my writing and the way that I observe the world. It’s not singing, really, and it’s not certainly not dance routines, and it’s not whatever else it is that other artists might have going in their favour. My strength is my ability to tell a story. And so I’m going to lean into that. I have to. It’s all I have.”
For more from Lily, head to ThePerfectMagazine.com.
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